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Updates

Well I haven't blogged in a while, so I thought it was time for some updates.

First, I am finally finished with my job! It is such a relief to not have to worry about some very bad little kids. I was supposed to have more work lined up for me, but that didn't work out. I guess I'm just going to have to find something else as soon as I can. The next several weeks are packed full of stuff I'm already doing, so when things settle down, I need to start job hunting. Hopefully I will be able to find something quickly.

As for deployment, I still refuse to let it kick my butt. Some days are harder than others of course, and I'm not ashamed to admit that I do cry at times, but I know that I am a lot tougher than I started out.

We finally passed the one year mark for our wedding!!! Only 11 months and 28 days to go until I marry the love of my life! I booked our reception hall about a little over a week ago. It's time for the real planning to start. I wish that Travis was here to help out, but I'm trying to include him as much as possible.

Things have been a little stressful lately, so this week I am staying with my aunt out of town while she takes a class to become a motorcycle instructor. So I should have plenty of time for more updates. :)

May 12: more than just a date

Well I looked at the calendar today, and guess what it is... yep, May 12. To you, it might be just another day. To me, it's the 3 year anniversary of the day I met the love of my life (for that story, check out this post). I can't believe it's been 3 whole years already. I know that it may not seem like that big a deal to other people, but that day was the start of my life as I know it now. I feel like I've changed a lot since that day. When we met, I had never been in a serious relationship (really, nothing I could even quite call a relationship). I hadn't graduated yet. I was on a completely different career path (I wanted to study marine biology). I was still young. Now I have experienced a lot more. Although I still have maturing to do, I feel like I've grown a lot since then. Now I'm majoring in Elementary education. I'm getting married. I've grown a lot through this deployment as well. I am still learning to do things on my own and be more independent. I'm doing more with my friends instead of sitting around sulking. I am learning more about myself. I hope that by the end of this deployment I will be a lot more confident about myself. I'm toughening up, but I still have a ways to go.

I finally took the General Knowledge Test. I wont get the final scores for about 6 weeks, but I at least passed all of my sections (I won't find out about the writing portion until the rest of my results come out, but I'm sure I passed that). I feel so relieved to be finished studying. Now I can relax (minus work) until my birthday on Saturday. Tomorrow I start cleaning/organizing my bedroom. I'm ashamed to admit it, by my room likes like the room of a 15-year-old boy. What can I say? I've had papers, speeches, exams like nobody's business these last few weeks. It's time to get my life in order. I'll let you know tomorrow how that goes... haha.

My "other" blog

Check out http://www.followinggijoe.com/. It's a blog dedicated to military girlfriends and fiancees. There is so much information dedicated to military wives, so this site is dedicated to those of us who love our military men, but aren't married to them yet. I'm very excited to announce that I am a new blogger for the site. I posted my first article (about the day I met my soldier) so be sure to check it out and let me know what you think! I am really looking forward to helping out other military girlfriends and fiancees if I can. Also, follow @FollowingGIJoe on Twitter for more updates.

I'll still be posting on here about my boring everyday life (lol) since the other one is strictly military related. Even if you aren't linked to a military man, check it out. It's going to be awesome :)

Late night

Why do I torture myself the way I do? I'm sleepy. My eyes hurt because they want to close and the lights of the computer screen and my lamp are too bright. I know I need to get up early so I can study. Instead of sleeping, I'm sitting in bed awake at 1:00 am. I know I should try to sleep. But honestly, I don't think I would be able to if I tried. I spend too many nights tossing around in my bed because I can't sleep. I guess it's because I have a lot on my mind. For the most part, it's one person. Travis. I miss him so much. It's easier to convince myself that I'm tough during the day, when I'm around people. But at night, when I'm alone, I can't help but feel weak. Every day I try my best to put on a brave face. I try to be tough. Sometimes I really am. I act like I'm not scared. But I am. What makes it even harder is that none of my friends understand what I'm going through. But most of all, it's the fact that my very best friend, the one I can tell anything and everything to, is the one person I can't tell how I'm truly feeling. I don't want him to have to worry about me. He has much more important things to worry about. He needs me to be strong for him. I'm doing my best, but I will keep pushing myself. I won't complain. I can do this. I will do this. I am strong. Because really, what other choice do I have? I am in love with a soldier.

Hello

After much debating and procrastinating, I finally decided to start a blog. I have no idea what I'm going to write about, or how often I'm going to post, but I thought I would give it a try. For those of you who don't know me (or don't know me that well), I guess I'll share a little about myself.

I'm 20 (for now... I'll actually be 21 this Saturday). I'm a college student, but I'm off for the summer (long story). I'm basically killing time this year until my soldier comes home from deployment. We will be getting married next summer. I love him more than anything. We are perfect for each other. Thankfully he puts up with me (which can definitely be a challenge). I know without a doubt that we are supposed to be together. He's my best friend and my hero. I can't wait until I can call him my husband too.

I still live at home with my mom, sister, and my dog, Max. Max is a tiny toy poodle, and he's spoiled. He thinks he's our guard dog. He's crazy sometimes but I love him, so you will probably hear a lot of stories about him.

That's it for now. Hopefully I will be posting more soon, so stay tuned! :)